Why I got into wellness...
I often tell people of my journey into wellness and it's often met with gasps!
I wasn't always healthy or even trying to be but life put me on the path at around 18.
At that point in my life I was a mess. I ate rubbish, drank loads, virtually chain smoked and took no care of myself at all. To top it off I was a workaholic because that was the only way I could seek any validation and value for who I was. Being a hairdresser this enabled me to dig deeper into these patterns and change was not easy at all.
I would take on extra clients either for the money or because of the extreme pressure to not let anyone down and to fit in. I always had to do better and work harder than anyone else.
What changed? Autoimmune disease. Chronic inflammation and dysregulation. My body was inflamed and angry. The people pleasing was working for others but inside I there was resentment and anger. I was tired and wired. I couldn't stop because of the musts shoulds and have tos. The perfectionism, people pleasing and zero self worth was already taking it's toll.
Over the years I often felt unlucky because I had to deal with it all so early on. But on reflection I was kicked out of my darkness and rage and forced to look at what was really going on. It has been a life's work for me and this is why I am so passionate about change. Particularly for my clients.
I started with receiving Reiki treatments, gently becoming aware of my body. I was really lucky with all of my Teachers that they really worked in this somatic way. Some of the first questions my Reiki Master asked me when I visited her in crisis with a massive flare in my eye - "What are you seeing or not seeing, are you seeing 'red', are you seeing joy ahead?"
She began to bring my emotional world into the physical and mental. It all made sense. After that time I took a deep dive, several deep dives into all sorts of different ways to get well. I was often thwarted because of my desire to go too fast, too much, too hard and to be fixed.
Thousands of pounds spent looking for the one thing. I put my body through restrictive diets, exhausting daily regimes and big ceremonial releases looking for the answer. But the issues with my emotional, mental and physical health kept coming.
I felt defeated each time. Like I'd failed.
The biggest shifts and changes I made in my life came when bringing awareness to the root causes. Addressing my past negative experiences and whole health and stopping looking for the thing would fix me forever. That includes dropping the addiction, dealing with my diet, implementing good boundaries and routines to support my growth and commitment to myself. In short. Self responsibility
My sleep got better
My energy was more stable
I was more regulated
I was more resilient
I understood how my past negative experiences were affecting my present life and what I needed on a regular day to day basis to feel better.
There were no quick fixes. There was no one answer.
Ceremonies, cold water dips, huge purges of emotions in workshops created the releases I craved but when I came back to live daily life the same issues were still there.
I had to gently revisit my past, to understand my present to support my future. My life changed from being nervous, people pleasing wreck to becoming more balanced, peaceful and resilient.
This is how I work with you.
The sessions and 1:1 programmes I offer, use tools for you to let go of the past and the ingrained patterns and behaviours to start to build a more balanced and peaceful life. They empower you to make the decisions you need and create lasting changes.
If you'd like to know more click the link below or have a listen to Emma's story and her and the changes she has made...