The poison becomes the medicine
“One of the most healing things you can do is recognise where in your life you are your own poison.” ― Steve Maraboli
I have been writing a lot about the process of change.
I think this may be what I have to learn at a deeper level. To understand it and to guide others.
I think this is something I have always done
I have heard friends and family say in the past that I become fixated on a certain path. A deep need to study and understand a certain thing.
This deep point of change in my own life is truly showing me the patterns I have that are not serving me. In fact they are hurting me and in turn, others.
I am truly noticing where my poison is becoming the medicine I need.
As the quote says above. I am recognising the hardest thing. Where I am poisoning my own life with my patterns.
“The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars, but in ourselves.” ― William Shakespeare
I am attempting to make better choices. To choose from a less wounded place. To be more accountable for the bad choices I have made for myself in the past.
Am I getting it right? Absolutely not.
Maybe I will in the future. It takes practice. It takes persistence. It takes courage.
It is allowing myself to sit in what is. The poison.
Not pushing it away. Not avoiding it.
Thus allowing it to be recognised, seen and brought to awareness.
Perhaps people term it as turning darkness to light, but for me it is definitely seeking the soothing medicine I need for my future.
We often get tired of feeling a certain way, making the same mistakes and repeating cycles. But we don’t really know how to change. So we burn down the old, a job, a house move, leave a relationship and we start to build again.
We start to see a similar pattern emerge, yet we press on because this time it’s different, this time we know better, no way we’ll do that again. Right?
Unfortunately not.
I see this a lot on Instagram etc. My toxic Partner (insert another person) did this, that and the other.
But do we ever see our own toxicity? Can we sit in our own s*** and just listen.
If we can there are possibilities. There is new life. There is change.
If we can’t, each time we try again and again and again…we see the same result.
So many times I have filled this void with something new, bright and shiny.
This time I have to fill the void with honesty, integrity and truth.
“What is true changes, so we can't tell the truth once and be done with it. It's an ongoing game.” ― Brad Blanton