I don’t really want to tell you much of the story from here because still after nearly 4 years of landing in Scotland it is all still evolving.
As many people find when they let an old life go a new one has to be built. I found I had to face myself in more ways than I could ever imagine and after a Summer of deep diving and processing, another layer of wounding has been laid bare and brought up to the light.
Building a life and a business all in one go was not on the list but it is where life dragged me to. The desire to build something was immense.
In doing all of these things, I noticed some old emotional patterns coming up. A sense of isolation, loneliness, fear and anxiety was driving my life and my decisions.
My core beliefs were exposed.
“I’m not good enough”
“I’m not able enough”
“I’m unlovable”
I became lost in the mind fog and became highly emotional, loads of really awful memories came up from my childhood that I thought I had dealt with. Each time I spoke to someone about this I just welled up with tears.
After meeting with a friend she mentioned a therapist who used eye movement therapy. I booked straight in and had my first session. The effects of the eye movements were rapid, I could still view the memories but they didn’t have a hold on me any longer, I could see them for what they were, painful but in the past.
The deepest part of working with the IEMT Practitioner was the identity imprint or limiting beliefs work. They were so deeply rooted and clearly had an effect on how I had learned to function.
Everyone has self-limiting beliefs. They’re the perceptions and thoughts you have about yourself, others, and the world. And they’re self-limiting because these perceptions and thoughts are preventing you from doing something that you’re actually quite capable of doing (even though you don’t think you are!).
Like an invisible cage, crafted by the mind, that holds us back from reaching our true potential – this is the essence of limiting beliefs, a powerful psychological construct that shapes our lives in profound ways. These mental barriers, often formed in our early years, can dictate our choices, influence our behaviours, and ultimately determine the trajectory of our lives.
Limiting beliefs are deeply ingrained thoughts or perceptions that constrain our abilities, potential, or worthiness. They’re like mental roadblocks that whisper, “You can’t,” “You’re not good enough,” or “It’s impossible.” These beliefs aren’t innate; they’re learned and reinforced over time, becoming part of our cognitive framework.
Identity imprint refers to these deeply ingrained self-perceptions and beliefs that are formed through past experiences. These imprints significantly influence our behaviour and emotional responses across different situations.
I saw where this could really benefit the women I worked with and promptly booked the training. I haven’t looked back, it was the missing piece of the puzzle in my own life and I know it has been a literal life saver for others.
My studies fired up and I have been working hard to develop my skills as a Root Cause Practitioner.
Being able to release the memories and beliefs I held supported my health in every way. It allowed me to feel safe enough to do some of the deeper work with the amazing therapists within the Root Cause community, some fantastic therapists in Glasgow and a wonderful herbalist in Yorkshire.
What I recognise is the path to healing is not straight, it’s confusing and sometimes painful. But it IS a journey of learning and growing. The pain does not have to own you or your body.
Working with autoimmune disease takes gentleness and self compassion and yet those were the things I forgot how to be and do at an early age.
In the time I have been in Scotland there has been immense growth and healing. Letting go of the uncomfortable comfort of an inauthentic life was the hardest, but I recognise it was half life, filled with a lot of pain, repressed feelings and a lot of control.
Rarely do any of us choose difficult change, mostly the discomfort and pain cause us to shift. It finally becomes too uncomfortable to bare.
The result though. I haven’t had a flare of Uveitis since 2020, my eyes are in really good health, my thyroid and hormone levels (perimenopause) are all good and I feel brighter and smilier than ever before.
I have much to look forward to and that feels amazing after a lifetime of illness, anxiety and depression.
I hope you have enjoyed hearing about my journey and if any of it resonates at all then please reach out for the support you need to get you out of uncomfortable discomfort.