I wrote last week about taking a journey. A Souls journey to reflect and to allow myself to move forward.
Now I'm back, Scotland has never felt more like home.
I returned with that sense of completion I spoke of. The familiarity of the place was incredible. A sense of knowing it but no longer connected. It has taken some time time to settle and occasionally my fear has wanted to drive me back. Luckily my courage has always got the better of me.
The one thing I always loved about Lincolnshire is it's big skies. For a person who never felt she belonged there, I found beauty where I could.
On my first evening I looked up and the sky was filled with baby pink clouds, just gorgeous. I was asked if I missed it - "Not enough." was my reply.
Sometimes despite the work you know is ahead of you, it must be faced. Being able to return and see myself back in that place has given me the strength and the fortitude to do just that.
It was an indescribable feeling of being all and nothing at the same time. The duality of releasing and receiving all at once. Being able to observe every move I made, every conversation. So much unfolding to witness and yet receiving all the sensations of what is to come. All coexisting within me.
And that is life. Everything moving through us constantly, but we don't take the time to stand still and witness it.
“So it is said, for him who understands Heavenly joy, life is the working of Heaven; death is the transformation of things. In stillness, he and the yin share a single Virtue; in motion, he and the yang share a single flow.” ― Zhuangzi
Some of you may not resonate with the word God, but to phrase Julia Cameron "Good. Orderly. Direction" I allowed it all to flow through me and wash over me, Earthly orderliness to take me.
I had spent so much of my life hanging on to things that caused me pain. It was joy to experience a different way of being in such a familiar space.
I found moments of stillness even when surrounded by people. Of course I bumped up against some of my own and others stuff. But it didn't matter. I was just present with it all.
This has also been the theme of my week so far and it has always been a part of the work I offer.
We have to be willing to let go of the old, we have to release it and thank it for it's lessons. Otherwise we are so full up of the old, there can be no space for the new.
In this time, slowly and steadily creeping into Autumn. Think about what can be released naturally.
What requires burning or washing away? What may require some witnessing before its allowed to leave you?
Give it your time and space and then call in some new energy.
Notice all the life flowing right through you.
Be present.
