Letting the light back in...
“Numb the dark and you numb the light.” ― Brené Brown
I have been talking of and honouring the process of change. Noticing the darkness and the light in all things, including myself.
Writing in this way quite new to me. I often share my story but as we all do, we leave small pieces of that story out.
But to be able to produce what I want to write in the long term, I have to be vulnerable. I have to show those pieces of myself. To be heard in ways that are currently unfolding.
It’s a process. It’s a way to understand what lies underneath all the change and chaos.
As the quote above says, by allowing the unsaid to remain that way then we numb all our words.
By allowing some space and honesty for the darkness then surely we can see some light reflected back at us?
That has been the nature of recent days.
Changeability. Uncertainty. Instability.
All the things I struggle with. And everything I have been dealing with in the most recent years.
Within the acceptance of not knowing, evidence of new life appearing.
More comfort in the writing of my words.
A reflection of life beginning to respond to my patience and surrender.
A validation of sorts that my willingness to sit with darkness is gradually bringing in some rays of light.
“Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up.” ― Anne Lamott
The light, of course doesn’t remain forever but we continually strive for it. Even when we know it exists within us, we still reach further and further from the very place it sits.
This is the interminable struggle.
So when it comes, when you catch a glimpse even. Sit peacefully in its embrace.
“When you light a candle, you also cast a shadow.” ― Ursula K. Le Guin