So much of my journey has been about living and breathing my truth. The deep truth and life path that lives inside me and all of us. Our potential.
It's coming up more and more in the work I do. My own learning and understanding has been "you can't lie to your own Soul"
As I progressed with different modalities and teachings it became more and more apparent that the issues I was experiencing in life, the pain, was being caused by my insistence on lying to myself about who I really was.
I covered over the cracks with courses and increasing my logical learning about the work I inevitably needed to do at a deeper level. But the calling became stronger and stronger and the issues became deeper and more difficult.
I don't believe in anything random happening any longer, mainly because of the experiences I had, the people I shared them with, the teachers I was guided to and the the timing in which they all came.
When the messages came to me they were often whispers. When I ignored them, they became shouts.
I often tell the story of my first weekend of Kundalini Yoga training. Above my Teacher there was a meme which read "I'm sorry, the life you ordered is no longer in stock." I laughed at first until my third weekend. The messages after long weeks of early morning practice and deep meditation were coming through loudly.
"Life as you know it is about to change, and it's time."
By the end of my training, I felt happier and freer than ever before. I was more open and more myself than I had ever experienced in my life. Growth and expansion had become a necessity.
My habits shifted. No longer needing the stimulation of TV every evening I read and dived into mediation and mantra.
My body and appearance changed completely. People that hadn't seen me for a while said "Wow, you look so different. What happened?"
Most of all, the life I had been hiding behind changed beyond measure. Friendships I had held, no longer resonated with me and my Husband and I called time on our 20 year relationship. It was possibly the most honest thing we had ever done.
It wasn't easy. And these changes don't occur for everyone. But I was ready. So ready.
This world of inner discovery calls to us for a reason. Chakras, kundalini, energy work and intuition all sounds intriguing and we want to explore this deeper aspect of ourselves that we can’t see or touch. We know at a deep level it's all there waiting to be uncovered but to take the step towards understanding it, to living and breathing it, is a totally different path.
Embodying your Spiritual path is walking your talk. The practice of not only understanding with your mind, but also anchoring it into your body and in my own experience, your whole life.
It's living the deep truth that you know and it's understood and lived within your whole being.
It doesn’t matter if you don't understand or remember every piece of yogic philosophy or know each chakra name by heart. It doesn't matter how many courses you have completed, how many crystals or oracle cards you’ve got in the house. None of these things are about your deepest truth.
Truth and being true to yourself and the path you want to tread is uncomfortable.
Its one thing to understand a blocked sacral chakra and to have a breath practice or kriya for it. But totally another to know where it comes from. To understand its where you may have been hurt on different levels and that some of that hurt may have come from within you. To sit with it and to feel the layers of learning it has to offer can be excruciating.
Its not about fixing anything. Its about deep inner growth.
When Spirituality is seen as something outside of us, something we tap into when needed or when we do a course, read a book or light some incense, then that is what is called Spiritual bypassing. I hate buzz words or phrases, but for now this will have to do.
When we embody Spirituality we live the experience of our path and our true potential. We come out of our minds and into our bodies. Into all that is instinctual and deeply felt through all the senses.
We begin to see that the body isn’t just a vessel in which to experience life, but a living expression of all that we are. It's where we see, hear and feel the messages from a deeper source. We are a microcosm of the macrocosm and a portal to our higher source and calling.
"There is more wisdom in your body than in your deepest philosophy." - Friedrich Nietzsche
I am finding in all of my work, both personal and professional, where we don't face, hear, see, speak and honour our personal truth is where we face our issues. The resistance kicks in and our mind says "No, we can't possibly do that." We try to control what is true to us and we face a split in our lives.
But once we accept the truth, speak to it and let it speak to us, the unfolding begins.
How are you denying your truth?
How can you find more peace with the discomfort?
Are you willing to explore, learn and grow?
I invite you to find time to learn a little more about your self over the coming months. Autumn Equinox this weekend is a perfect time of light and dark to sit in the in between space of what is gone and what is to come.